May 2, 2006
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so i’ve put off updating because i was afraid of what i would say (or not say)… i have so many thoughts and feelings that i want to get out, but at the same time, am i truly prepared to say them? there’s a finality with it all–one that i don’t know that i’m prepared for just yet….
i’m dealing with so many things right now, and could really use my friends a lot, but it seems as if they’re just not interested in being there as much as i am for them. we discuss their problems and concerns, but when it comes around to me, they leave me hanging. i deserve my time, too. so what if i live in a different city? friendship knows no bounds… or at least i thought that to be true. …i’m not saying every friend is like this, but a few that really matter to me have become so self-involved (not their fault–they have problems too) to the point that it seems that i no longer matter. it just hurts.
maybe it’s just that we’re all at different points in our lives. i know i don’t have time to call everyone all the time, and i don’t expect my friends to just start calling every day, but when we’re in a conversation, how about asking how i am for once, and be truly interested. this may not be a big deal to you all now, because you’re surrounded by tons of friends that you could easily go to to be heard, but you know what, wait til you’re gone and see who sticks around. i’d like to think i’d be one of those “forever friends…”
again, not towards one person, and not necessarily towards my commerce friends, but just in general. thanks for listening. you are a great friend.
(and that wasn’t even the half of it)
Loves and AOT,
–Jenp.s. happy birthday to the bestest big bro ever…
Comments (5)
Jen, I know exactly what you mean. It’s just part of life during this changing time—hang in there because it does get better; I promise. AOT
Jen, thanks for the encouragement. If u need to talk you can always call me if u have my number do you? Anyways thanks for all that you do to encourage me when you can. I know I will be ok it just is soo frustrating right now. You would think that planning a wedding is suppose to be a happy time but right now it is not. Anyways if u want my number just message me and I will give it to you. Hopefuly all will be ok with your situation too.
Hi Gorgeous!! I hope you know I’m always here to talk!! And soon I will be there to talk!! That’ll be super fun! =) K, mwah!
no….nothing really new….everyone obviously hates me and thinks I would be a horrible employee…hence the crying
MWAH!! You rock!!