Thank you all for your comments. You have no idea how much I truly appreciate each and every one of them. I would like to point out, however, that I am writing in this web journal FOR ME. This is my one place to vent, to get my true feelings out, whether that includes the profane language that some aren’t used to hearing from me, or my weak moments. I decided to write in this so that I could be honest with myself, and if my friends read it, that would be fine, because they would love me regardless. Besides, it saved me tons of times from repeating my daily occurances over and over. I have never been completely honest with how I was feeling, and this is my therapy. This is my way to express myself. I am sorry if I am not living up to the ideal of “Jennifer,” but I am being myself, the raw and uncensored version, and if you don’t like it….please don’t bother reading anymore.

This journal is getting me through….let me have it my way, please, and love me regardless. Thank you.